Honestly

Once you realize that the only person that you have to fulfill is yourself, life makes a lot more sense.  Don't live for others, do what you do because you want to.  Go to school because you want to be a more intelligent human being, not because your parents want to.  Turn in your homework because you want to learn the material, not because you want your teachers to shut up.  Help other people because it makes you happy, not because you have to do community service for some class or to get into college.  You'll wake up one day and realize that you love making people happy and smile.  It's the best thing in the world.  Especially her.  I told New York girl that I was into her and she wouldn't have me.  I didn't tell her I love her, but I didn't want to come on too strong.  I realize that the distance would get in the way.  I don't know. I know nothings going to happen between me and her, but where I lost a potential girl friend, i think I gained my best friend.  I'm not going to be any less nice or any less there for her.  I know that it would be easier for me to get girls if I was more of a douche, but it's not worth sacrificing part of myself along the way.  It's better to do what is right than what is easy.  Plus, I'd rather a girl fall in love with the nice guy in me, the real me, than some douche bag front i put on.  I know New York cares about me, a lot.  We've stayed up late in the night and put off things for each other more than once, just to hear about each others days.  She's still coming to hang out with me this Christmas, and I'm still going to see her in her show, she's an actress if  I didn't tell you, this spring.  I look forward to knowing her the rest of my life.